Well, I let myself rest after my injury last week, and my neck is still very sore, yet I decided it was time to get back to Yoga. I wanted to feel my body and how it moves now after this two weeks of eating in this way.
I have resisted the very strong urge to measure myself and weigh myself, and I often don’t trust how I see myself in the mirror… so, how I feel in my body is my best indicator.
Helloooo forward bend!
Whoo freaking hooo, I could get my chest on my thighs without feeling like my stomach was pushing up in to my throat and suffocating me! My hands slipped reasonably easily under my heels. There was no pain in my abdomen when doing any of the compression poses…. miracle! It feels like my intestines are happy…
(For an amusing take on my earlier belly yoga check out this post!)
I remember my old yoga instructor in yoga teacher training (ten odd years ago now) telling us that abdominal/core strength was not just about the outside muscle development, it has a lot to do with intestinal health… so INSIDE-out strength. Apart form having good internal muscular control thanks to bandhas, correct use of my pelvic floor and so on, the only thing to help that is a good diet. Something I have tinkered with around the edges for a decade, yet never committed full on to a way of eating that would make a significant difference (ten days on the Master lemonade cleanse detoxy thing was AMAZING, yet of course I went straight back to old diet habits straight after).
So I THINK THIS IS WORKING!!!
Feeling like that in my body also helps recover the motivation to stick at it.
Emotionally ….
Yesterday was like a baptism of fire. So interesting. A HYPER emotional day. So many tears and ‘I can’t be bothered’ thinking. Everything was wrong. Everything was too hard. I was useless.
I did a personal growth seminar years ago and remained involved for many years. (www.isaexperience.com). They talked about your comfort zone, and how, when you are pushing your face up on the edge of your comfort zone … QUITTING WILL COME UP BIG TIME … and your little voice will be doing it’s most persuasive self-talk to convince you why you should retreat and go back to where it’s safe and comfy.
Yesterday, my emotions were smashing my face up against it (or I was smashing my face up against it thanks to my generating my emotions), and whilst quitting in itself was never an option (not once did I think I would actually eat the cake), MY LITTLE VOICE WAS SCREAMING FOR CAKE FULL OUT!!. It was like I was testing my self, and as the pain got worse, the discomfort got worse, the desire to eat cake got more…..
Today it feels like I’ve pushed through to the other side, and I’ve just gone back to getting on with it.
I got such a fantastic insight yesterday though. Just how much (not healthy) food equates to comfort and nurturing and self care for me.
Craving a capsicum
I actually have been craving red capsicum strips today! (for anyone not Australian – that’s a red pepper). They are so sweet!! And Crunchy! And so full of juice and yumminess.
Yeeeehaaaa
Lord knows what I’ll have to say tomorrow… lets’ see what unfolds.
Food Diary
Breakfast: A tiny mouthful of tuna, because whilst normally I wouldn’t eat before a yoga class, Whole30 says to prepare by eating a small amount of protein. It was hardly any.
Breakfast catch up/Post-workout meal: Two egg and bacon cradles, three pieces of home baked and pickled (with apple cider vinegar) beetroot (also recommended to eat with protein as post-workout for the carb density). A few strips of capsicum, some celery and carrot sticks….. and note this people … I’m happy about this!!! veggie sticks!!!! who knew?*
Late Lunch: Beef/Pork mince skillet with leek, capsicum, grated carrot and grated zucchini, and Piri Piri spice mix. Really yummy!
Dinner: Chicken Korma – Korma paste from a jar (all happy ingredients), Mushrooms, Capsicum, Onion, Tomatoes and Coconut Cream (devine!), served on Cauliflower rice.
Snack: Dried Mango
Exercise diary
90 minute Bikram yoga class
35 minutes bike riding – to/from yoga and to/from Butcher
*Reading that even made me laugh